Archive for September, 2009

7:24 – Selamat Hari Raya

It’s that time of year again.

I’ll just cut to the chase.

Sometimes, when little kids don’t fast, the adults will tease them, saying that if the kids do not fast, they would not be able (allowed?) to celebrate Eid.

It was only this year that I realized it wasn’t just a story that the adults made up. It’s true, you can’t celebrate Eid. Well, not really anyway.

I confess, I haven’t been fasting properly for… Well, at least a couple of years now. And the past few years (as well as this year) I haven’t felt excited about Eid. I’ve always put this off as just me, growing up, and thus becoming less excited about such things. But this year I realized that I haven’t felt excited about Eid because there was nothing for me to be excited about. I didn’t fast, I didn’t do my prayers… Basically I did everything that I wasn’t supposed to. And as a result, I can’t really celebrate Eid.

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Another issue that arises during Eid.

Every year, there will be some distant relative that comes to visit. They seem to know me. The sad part is that I don’t know them by name. Worse are those who aren’t even relatives. There are very kind people out there who are very nice to me and give me generous amounts of money, but I don’t even know why I deserve their kindness, you know? Why are they being so nice to me? I’m not even related by the tiniest speck of blood (well maybe, if you consider Adam’s lineage, but let’s not go there) People know me but I don’t know them! I guess it’s nice, but I feel bad for them as well because I know I’m not the kind of person to reach out and communicate with them. Why do they still put up with it though, year after year? I’m not deserving of your kindness, please.

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