Barely 30 minutes and I already woke up and cried
I dreamt things were back the way they were
Best dream in a long time
Time to cry myself to sleep again
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I love you still, maybe even more, seeing how persistent you are! (:
I guess actions speak louder than words.
I’m sorry
Even after trying to muster up all the courage I had, holding back my tears, all I could say was “I’m sorry”
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Train ride home didn’t help
40 minutes from Lakeside to Redhill
Apparently there was some incident
Will look out for the story online
What a long day
Met the girl at 11 AM
Accompanied her to school for her short short meeting
Watched “The Dark Knight”
Attended the CSC meeting which ended at 9 PM
Finally back home at 10 PM
The Dark Knight was great, well for me at least
A whole 2 hours and 30 minutes
I’m really sorry you didn’t fully enjoy the movie
Besides Maggie Gyllenhaal’s character, (I don’t get why they pick ugly girls for such movie roles. I mean look at Spider-Man and Kirsten Dunst. Kirsten is nowhere near as hot as comic Mary Jane) the rest were great. Heath Ledger was the absolute highlight. I hope Christian Bale carries on with the Batman project. Michael Caine played out Alfred exactly how I imagined him to be in the comics. It was great, a definite must watch if you have an idea about the story of Batman. If not, well… The girl said the last hour was great.
I was surfing reddit, a social news website on which users can post links to content on the web, and I came across this link about the Federal Reserve, about how powerful bankers have been conspiring for world domination and increased power. That was quite interesting and thought provoking, but what was more interesting to me was this “rant” from a movie (Network, 1976)
Here is the clip:
*Edit: Here is the LINK to the clip, somehow the embed code doesn’t work here, =/
If you didn’t catch what he said, here are the subtitles:
You people and sixty-two million other Ameicans are listening to me right now. Because less than three percent of you people read books. Because less than fifteen percent of you read newspapers. Because the only truth you know is what you get over this tube. Right now, there is a whole, an entire generation that never knew anything that didn’t come out of this tube. This tube is the gospel, the ultimate revelation. This tube can make or break Presidents, Popes, Prime Ministers. This tube is the most awesome, god-damned force in the whole godless world. And woe is us if it ever falls into the hands of the wrong people and that’s why woe is us that Edward George Ruddy died. Because this company is now in the hands of CCA, the Communication Corporation of America. There’s a new chairman of the board, a man called Frank Hackett sitting in Mr. Ruddy’s office on the 20th floor. And when the twelfth largest company in the world controls the most awesome, god-damned propaganda force in the whole godless world, who knows what shit will be peddled for truth on this network. So, you listen to me! Listen to me! Television is not the truth. Television is a god-damned amusement park. Television is a circus, a carnival, a traveling troupe of acrobats, story tellers, dancers, singers, jugglers, sideshow freaks, lion tamers and football players. We’re in the boredom-killing business. So if you want the truth, go to your God, go to your gurus, go to yourselves because that’s the only place you’re ever gonna find any real truth. But man, you’re never gonna get any truth from us. We’ll tell you anything you want to hear. We lie like hell! We’ll tell you that Kojack always gets the killer, and nobody ever gets cancer in Archie Bunker’s house. And no matter how much trouble the hero is in, don’t worry. Just look at your watch – at the end of the hour, he’s gonna win. We’ll tell you any shit you want to hear. We deal in illusions, man. None of it is true! But you people sit there day after day, night after night, all ages, colors, creeds – we’re all you know. You’re beginning to believe the illusions we’re spinning here. You’re beginning to think that the tube is reality and that your own lives are unreal. You do whatever the tube tells you. You dress like the tube, you eat like the tube, you raise your children like the tube. You even think like the tube. This is mass madness. You maniacs. In God’s name, you people are the real thing. We are the illusion. So turn off your television sets. Turn them off now. Turn them off right now. Turn them off and leave them off. Turn them off right in the middle of this sentence I am speaking to you now. Turn them off!
Call me a pessimist, or a conspiracy theorist, but as much as we the common people would like to believe that we know the “truth”, that we know what really is going on out there in the world, I feel that what we know from the news is really what the people in power allows us to know. Wise up people, think for yourselves, not what others want you to think.
And now he’s just read something somewhere,
And the fun of the last post is just bombed out of the water!
Bummer.
The 2 psychiatrist friends
This is a story about 2 psychiatrist buddies discussing this new guy that came in. For sake of simplicity, they’ll be referred to A and B.
A: Hey B! Have you seen that new guy that came in?
B: Yeah… That guy has issues man.
A: Err… Like YEAH? That’s why he’s here dude.
B: Right. What’s his problem?
A: What isn’t his problem?
B: Funny. Seems like this time he’s resigned to whatever that has happened.
A: Yeah, he doesn’t seem to be fighting back like he usually does. I wonder why.
B: Maybe he’s given up.
A: Maybe he just doesn’t know what to say.
B: Maybe he doesn’t wanna say anything.
A: What about… He thinks if she wants to say something about it, then she would.
B: And if she doesn’t then that’s that.
A: Right. And what’s with this stalking thing?
B: It’s not really stalking in the traditional sense of the word. He is sortofstalking, not REALLY stalking as in watch-out-I’m-right-behind-you kind of stalking. Maybe without the watch-out part. I mean stalking ain’t stalking if you gave the person a watch-out warning right?
A:That was really disturbing, but whatever. Maybe he’s just anxious. He wants to see if there has been any changes, any news. Cos its the only way of finding out now. And about that name-staring…
B: Yeah? Go on.
A: He’s probably just wondering whether the title still fits.
B: Title? What title?
A: Oh come on… You know… THE title?
B: Doesn’t ring a bell, sorry, nope.
A: …
B: OH! THAT title! Why didn’t you just say so?
A: …
B: Or maybe he’s waiting for something to happen?
A: Right, nice one.
B: So… Did anything happen?
A: How the hell would I know?
B: Sorry. Anyway, I think he is quite unreasonable as well.
A: Unreasonable?
B: Well yeah. Its a common thing nowadays, why get so worked up? Anyway, as the saying goes, if you can’t beat ‘em, join ‘em
A: You’re not suggesting that he…
B: Oh yes I’m suggesting that he…
A: Oh gosh… I don’t know…
B: Oh well if he’s not gonna do it then the least he could do is to be more understanding.
A: Yeah. I guess you got a point there.
B: I hope he manages to sort things out. This looks to be a potentially very messy affair.
A: Yeah… If it doesn’t, he could always come back to us.
B: Like that would be of any use.
The End
Now for the moral of the story:
Talking to yourself is one thing
Giving yourself a psychiatric evaluation from the viewpoint of two imaginary characters having a conversation and typing it out like a script is another
Fully realizing what I just did, and still allowing it to be published. That’s another thing altogether too
Now I am truly convinced that I am somewhat mentally disturbed
Or brilliant
Its just an opinion
Am I being unreasonable?
It is a common thing nowadays right?
Is it too much to expect from someone?
Maybe
I guess this just shows that I’m really not ready yet
Seems like I fail at Give and Take and Understanding
Maybe you can add Unreasonable to the list too
Sighs
Feels like something is missing
No wait; Something IS missing
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I can hear it
I can feel it
Heart’s beating hard, stuck in my throat
Trying hard to hold back the tears
Wondering if they’re worth it
They must be worth something; I can only hope
Life: Never so bad that it can’t get worse
Somebody show me how it can be worse
Cos I’m feeling pretty damn low right now
